There's a big fat elephant in the room, y'all. And I can't write another word on this blog site without talking about it. As a matter of fact, I'm breaking into the planned sequence of my blogs to discuss this. If you know me, you know I don't like changing my plans. But I can feel an urgency in my spirit. This has got to be said. And it's got to be said right now.
You guys have seen elephants in the room, right? You know -- the thing that everybody sees, but refuses to acknowledge. The thing that stomps its humongous feet right into the middle of a room, then plops its gargantuan rear end right on the floor. It might roll its trunk out into your lap or swat you with its mega-sized ear. It might even poke you with its ivory tusk or practically burst your ear drums with a trumpet call.
Now you'd think we human beings sitting around this elephant would do something about this situation. You'd think someone would point at the elephant, scream and call 911. But instead we sit around the elephant, conversing, having a good time, drinking chai and lattes together. No one wants to talk about the elephant. No one wants to recognize its existence. Well, I say enough is enough.
The elephant I'm talking about isn't sin, although sin is quite rampant in our society and our churches. I'm talking about Christians giving up on life and giving up on God. It's all around us. Think about all the people you know that have checked out on church, their families and everything that they were living for just a year ago. If you don't have anyone in your life like this, let me give you a few examples.
* The pastor and pastor's wife that live in the same household, but, practically speaking, ended their marriage years ago
* The young woman who has taken medication, gone to Christian treatment centers, had much counseling, and still struggles to live a healthy Christian life
* The friend whose disappointments in life and confusion over God's will and direction have her at the crossroads of walking away from God altogether
* The family member that called to say he was ending his life -- today*
And the list goes on and on.
Tears are flowing from my eyes right now as I ponder each of these situations. Everything in me wants to do something, but I don't know what to do. All I know to do is pray for these folks. And pray I have. But we've got to become a collective force as the Body of Christ. We've got to intercede for the hurting folks in our lives. We've got to call them, visit them, love them with everything in our being.
And we've got to get real ourselves. We've got to tell our stories. We've got to share our disillusionment, our failings, our imperfections. We've got to share when we too have considered giving up -- on ourselves, on our loved ones, on God.
I've been there myself. After suffering two miscarriages and an adoption loss, I didn't think God could possibly love me. As a matter of fact, I remember asking Anthony, "Why does God hate me?" It seems unthinkable now, because my heart is completely settled on His love for me no matter what comes into my life. But I couldn't see that then.
And I've considered suicide. A year into my marriage, I suffered a clinical depression so deep that for weeks I was plagued with thoughts of taking my own life. I didn't want to live. I couldn't see anything worth living for. The enemy had twisted my mind so far backwards that I couldn't see the multitude of blessings right in front of my face.
After both of these periods of my life, I went through Christian counseling. I shared my story with friends that I knew were praying for me. My husband, probably wondering where the strong Christian woman he'd married had gone, supported and prayed for me. But late in the midnight hour, I was on my own. It was me and God. And it really boiled down to this: would I trust my own head or would I trust God's heart? In other words, would I trust my own thoughts and feelings or would I trust God and His Word?
I decided to trust Him.
I chose to trust in His Word. I chose to believe Romans 8:35-39:
* An update on the family member mentioned above; he's alive and well, but still in need of much prayer and healing.